All I want is balance.

Why is there always so much drama going on?

Kinda sleepy.

I can't stand it when people start posting how much work they've done on Twitter or how much more they have to go. HELLO one tweet is fine, maybe two but not a hundred!! There are other more interesting things in life!

You could tweet about dinner, what people in your family said today, what the weather is like (it's been awesome today. Windy and cool) and general life things. Not everything is about exams. How lame is that.

Been rather frustrated and irritated in general today. Largely because I can't seem to journalise anything for FA. Also because of the usual reason.....but there's no point getting antsy about that right now. Think I'm suffering from severe lack of human interaction. Staying cooped up like a hermit crab on my bed studying is not helping me at all. I am also eating A LOT of carbs at all random hours and not drinking enough water which is also not good. The last time I went out must have been Thursday (Saturday for a short while, but not really counted?). I FEEL TERRIBLE :( Really can't wait for the exams to be over for everyone so that I can see my friends! Excited to see Jod, Ak, Pn, Pj, Jg :>

I don't know about L. Our friendship has become so perfunctory and lame. Just "hey, how's it going" sort of messages every day. We go for days without talking. And I don't know about her but all the stuff that has been going on in my life.. I'd like to share but I don't know how to bring it up without it sounding weird. Also I don't know if she will ask to meet? I have always been the one who has suggested meet ups and outings and this time I'm going to wait and see if she asks. If she does, then perhaps this still has hope la. If not lose is lose I guess.. Some relationships just fizzle with time.

Better do a quick read of my notes again before I go to bed. Early paper tomorrow morning.

November is coming to a close, the year is coming to a close. It's been a mad one but amazing and memorable too :>

I'm just going to try.

Because that is what I do. Anyhow whack.

Risky.

I wish my school had the S/U option :( Badly need it now for one module. Desperate times call for desperate measures. I need an A for this to get a B overall and that is most definitely not possible in the finals.

Anyway crossing my fingers and hoping that it'll work out...

Has been a pretty decent day.

I'm almost done with CLS. Now got to sit and print out these whole bunch of words omg. If I am really going through with this option then that means tomorrow I can start on the other two modules.. I don't know la. I don't have an uneasy feeling about this, I think it'll work. I hope it will at least.

No sense.

I do not understand why I am writing so much.............................. what is wrong with me.

Also, have happily been whipping out my card and buying dresses and shirts. When they come, I shall try them on (and give what I have to give away) and if they do not fit I SHALL GET A REFUND.

Dei you worked damn hard for this money, why you anyhow spend la.

Anyway, today marks the start of exams for the other Uni kids. First time they're starting somewhat around the same time as us. Which is good! Unlike summer when I had to wait 1392483274 years for everyone else to be done with their exams.

Omg I just told myself "three chips, no more." I DON'T KNOW HOW THREE CHIPS BECAME HALF A CAN?!?! And now I have no choice but to eat the rest and pretend the can never existed in the first place. I must get rid of all incriminating evidence. Why la why..

CLS is coming along pretty alright, I just hope that I can continue like this through the night when I get my wake up call in the morning at 5?! Then I'll take a nap, then wash my hair then go for the dialogue and come home and sleep and why am I listing everything out okay bye.

Okay so studying kind of failed.

... well I started CLS.

The thunder and lightning is terrible. I hate rain but the wind is amazing. S is coming over later to swim, hope it won't be freezing cold.

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There is always someone worse off. If I feel like this after hearing the news of impending m, imagine how she'd feel? Poor thing.

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On another note, I haven't seen P, P or J for THE LONGEST OF TIMES. I am looking forward to the exams just so that I can see them again.

Got to focus.

Squeeze what I can from this.

TODAY will be the day I start studying properly. Much as it pains me, I'm not going to go out for dinner tomorrow. That can wait. I will focus and finish CLS today because it is a subject that does not deserve this much time and effort. I will somehow conquer a third of FA and I WILL START LOBO.

Okay highly ambitious, very impressive but before I go here is a bike:

Aprilia RSV 4 1000cc

Anything to avoid work.

I am busy looking at ways to finance the Fireblade I will have far in the future (earliest would probably be March 2015) and stressing over the fact that I will have to buy my first class 2 bike second hand instead of first like I wanted and that I will not be able to afford a Ninja or a Hayabusa for years.

Where am I going to find 5k interest free in January 2015?!

Obviously Financial Accounting is not keeping me very occupied.

Honda Fireblade CBR1000RR 2012 model

Suzuki Hayabusa GSX1300R 2011 model

Kawasaki Ninja ZX-14R 2012 model

Honda Blackbird CBR1100XX

AREN'T THEY BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One day they will all be mine.

I should get cracking.

I have not yet started studying properly. Do not feel motivated in the least. I wonder why I lack drive... I used to be a competitive person, I don't know where that part of me has gone now.

At least I know that my determination and strong will has not died - that much is evident from my pursuit of my license. I just wish it applied to everything.

Unsure.

Have I compromised myself?

Not used to this.

Too many words.