Okay if you think I'm being mean, harsh, detached, it's because that's exactly what I'm trying to do. Well, not the mean and harsh part. But definitely the detached.
I love you, but you never tell me that you love me back and I'm tired of being the enabler in a relationship. It's been the case for every single friendship I've ever had and it's the reason why I get hurt
Every.
Single.
Time.
I can't afford to lose you and lose this friendship too. Xy's right.
You mean too much to me.
But see, that very line I just wrote, is my weakness. Every time I show you how much I enjoy your company/like you, that's how much more 'power' you hold over me. It's because I throw myself completely into a friendship that I expect the same from the other party. But there aren't many like me and fortunately/unfortunately we're different threads trying to be part of the same fabric. A colourful cloth may not necessarily be a strong one - not if the threads can't intertwine.
I'm sorry for expecting so much from you.
It's my fault.
It's my fault.
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