Can't believe such a pretty girl would go out with such a detestable guy.

People change over time but I don't think I've changed at all. I've always been like this but I've been TOLD that I'm something else - so I just behave that way.

And I'll continue to behave that way.

But if you really know me, then you'll know that I'm the exact opposite of what you think I am. (No I'm not a mystery nor an enigma)

I'm just a confused person - torn between what my mother, my friends, others see me as and the person I really am.

And I find it hard, to be myself around people, because they always expect to see someone else. And whenever I'm behaving 'out of character' then it becomes unnerving to some.

But there's a subtle difference between my 'upset' and 'quiet' states and it'll take a very very very astute person to differentiate.

Thanks Lav for that illuminating and uplifting conversation :)

I was too shy to say that I love you.